FROM THE VAULT: WRITTEN END OF 2020
I could start this blog with #2020 but the realistic side of this is that …. this statement in the title is true 100% of the time- regardless of the year we are in.
I have been feeling lately the more content I put out, the more I talk about and empower others in my own way….. I need to be mindful in the way I am showing up online. I need to remember to be real, raw and be as human and transparent as possible. THIS IS BRAVELY BEAUTIFUL AFTER ALL.
We live in a tech world. A social world. A world that have quickly adapted to being all online… which is beautiful and yet filled with false personas all at the same time. We are able to curate our feeds and dive into whatever we want to see. We live in this world and it isn’t going away. It is in fact here to stay.
Today I am writing this blog as a way to call myself out and also everyone else as well.
Literally not one single person in the world has their shit together no matter what you think, feel or see. IT’S TRUE.
Behind every screen is a human being. Someone who has a struggle or a wound they are working through in their own way. They may share parts of it, or choose to keep it private. There is a human being behind that screen in front of your face and you have no idea what they are navigating behind the scenes.
I think we can use 2020 as a great example however, we got to see straight up how others were navigating through a world wide pandemic by what they were or were not posting on their feeds.
I want to be the first to say that I really truly believe in the value of people sharing the realness, the raw and the messy in between. That’s my goal. That is what I choose to share. I believe that gives us all permission to be an imperfect human who is always learning how to get their shit together… I mean #adulting am I right?
I have been receiving messages and DM’s saying, “wow you look so happy and like you have it all together.” And while those messages are so kind and I’m grateful that others are seeing this.. I need to be real. Because the truth is, I DO NOT HAVE MY SHIT TOGETHER.
I am currently in a transitional phase in my life like many other human beings on planet earth currently.
I basically quit my job in the middle of a pandemic. My safe and comfortable- reliable job. I had enough savings to get me through about 2.5 months without working full time. I do have another part time job….. But by no means is living like this realistic in Vancouver, let alone anywhere in the world. I quit because I wasn’t happy. My mental health was the worst it had ever been and I wasn’t processing and moving up in anyway where I was. It was time long before I made that choice. It wasn’t easy. It isn’t easy.
Let’s talk about finances. WOAH!
I THOUGHT by the time I was 29 years old I would have no debt, a house, maybe live in a double income household, be able to buy myself whatever I want and NEVER worry about if I would be able to buy groceries or not. Well, guess what? I am almost completely out of my savings, I am in a ton of debt (including school debt STILL), and I am trying my best to get by in life all while living my dreams. And this past year there has been multiple times I was unsure if I would be able to put food on my table or not.
**guess what… by society’s standards- I do not have my shit together. 🙃
Life is constantly handing us curve balls and we often don’t show them via social media…. which is maybe why we are hard on ourselves for not having it all together.
Look, all I am trying to say is that my life is good. I am not complaining. I have made all these choices and decisions. But it doesn’t mean it is easy, or what you see on the screen is the reality 100% of the time.
Today I felt called to share this – just to say HEY! You are not alone in trying to figure out all this stuff. I am in it too. More than you know.
Our beautiful little IG phonebooks are so much fun to curate and be creative with. They are an extension of us… so let’s be a little more transparent shall we? 😉
So here is your daily reminder…. IT IS MORE THAN OKAY YOU DO NOT HAVE YOUR SHIT TOGETHER! (yes, sorry mom… I said shit again 😉)
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